Unfortunately today was a big day for our family as Paul had to deploy for four months. He dropped this bombshell on me about 7 months ago during some of my hardest days as a new mom. At the time I couldn't believe what I was hearing as we had already dealt with building a home, a move, a pregnancy, and a baby, all while he continued to work on his online business and a nine month online Army course. How could it be that my family would be split up during some of the best developmental stages of our little girl's life? It just didn't seem right!
The deployment process has been the most bittersweet but mostly bitter experience that I have had to date. On one hand we couldn't wait for the countdown to begin but on the other this meant goodbye, for a while. When you add up the time your baby has to spend without her Daddy, it feels like a long dam time.
My house is quiet. The dogs are breathing loudly and I hear an occasional squeak from Felicity on her baby monitor. It’s a lonely feeling like wanting to throw your sweats on and hide under the covers with a huge bowl of ice-cream in one hand and a large glass of wine in the other.
After a breakup or difficult time when I was young my Mom would tell me to put my best dress on and go out to prove where I stood in the world. I guess this is where I stand tonight. I know what I feel like doing (remember that bowl of ice-cream and glass of wine) instead I will choose to put my best foot forward and use the next few months for personal growth as a military spouse and Mom, and where better to begin than with my HEALTH?!